A DECLARATION

……………………………….W hile nights have gone colder each passing day

……………………………..I  care not of what others say

…………………………...L ost in this nostalgia and bliss

…………………………L et my heart and mind in peace

………………………Y elling thy name on a windy day

……………………O ut in the open as I sway

…………………U ndo not this spell you cast upon me

………………M indless I may seem, but always in a glee

……………A s the moon shines bright, I pray

…………R emembering what once was so gray

………R ehearsing at the same time the right words to mention

……Y ou need not ask of my intention

…M ight as well not ask what I am trying to relay

E ventually you shall see, look closely, look carefully..and hope I made your day.

A Mystery

A nd so the once cold heart melted like snow in spring

N ever expected the bloom it could bring

D ays passed, not a single one was ever missed

R olling in a field of never-ending bliss

E very once in a while, eyes would wander

W ith the hope that he may just appear anywhere, somewhere

J ust this thought already fills the mind and heart

O nly to be saddened of the fact that we’re apart

H owever, the sadness would immediately fade away

N ever has it been so easy, whenever I hear him say,

“M iles away, but I am here to stay…”

A nd so this now-fragile-heart is once again swept away.

S oon will come a time that such longing will be met

O n top of a hill, while watching the sun set

N ow, you may all still wonder…but you’ll know, sooner or later.

It's STILL more fun in the PHILIPPINES!

Philippines. We have been through it all: wars, scandals, tragedies, financial crisis. Ant though we are still struggling to put an end to all those mentioned and more, one thing we never forget is to pray, help and SMILE! Yes we cry, we complain, we whine, we shout desperately...yet we still SMILE. It is no wonder that we have such a low suicidal rate.

And now that we are faced with another-same-old-new-problem - flood. I know, we will rise and at the end of the day, we will still be the "hopeful" nation. And we will soon, smile!

And...No matter how other great nations belittle us at times, no matter how the powerful nations bully us, no matter how harsh times could be…hey, I bet they can’t say “Coping/Surviving: It’s more fun in the Philippines”?

Indeed, IT IS still MORE FUN IN THE PHILIPPINES!

LSS again: One And Only...

You’ll never know

If you’ll never try

To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be

Your one and only

I promise I’m worth it

To hold in your arms

So, come on… maketh me a chance

To prove that I’m the one who can

Walk that mile…until the end starts

Until the end starts… this very line got me really hooked…aside from the “hope” it proposes…for me…it’s just so deep. Who could’ve thought that and end could start?

I mean…well, we all know that with every ending there’s a beginning of something. But for me, as how I see it, it’s an ultimate confession of unconditional and eternal love…because, again for me…one is willing to be there even if it’s the end…maybe end of the relationship, or ending of one’s existence, end of the world…et cetera… “Walk that mile…until the end starts…” To be there, to be that willing despite the unknown…brings a lot of hope. I can say so because we are used to hearing, "I will be with till the end"...see the difference? See the "hope" I'm talking about?

On a technical note...The song, in general, sounds generic…the melody, the lyrics…but, Adele (oh…hands down to her as always) is still commendable…again, as always…duh! (laughs)

With here power voice, nothing seems to go wrong. Not only that, she sings with her heart…but you can actually feel the pain...every emotion is felt when she sings.

And though, many say that this particular song, indeed, sound generic/common and that the lyrics is a bit shallow and oh, desperate…I must insist that Adele and her songs have obviously big difference from other songs nowadays…that is…they contain real feelings. Period.

Isn’t it obvious I love Adele. hehehe

WIDE AWAKE

This somehow is in relevance to what I posted about Paul McCrane's song...and I like this song...most of katy's songs that is...

I'm wide awake (x3) 

Yeah, I was in the dark 

I was falling hard 

With an open heart 

I'm wide awake 

How did I read the stars so wrong 

I'm wide awake 

And now it's clear to me 

That everything you see 

Ain't always what it seems 

I'm wide awake 

Yeah, I was dreaming for so long 

(Pre-Chorus) 

I wish I knew then 

What I know now 

Wouldn't dive in 

Wouldn't bow down 

Gravity hurts 

You made it so sweet 

Till I woke up on 

On the concrete 

(Chorus) 

Falling from cloud nine 

Crashing from the high 

I'm letting go tonight 

(Yeah I'm) Falling from cloud 9 

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/k/katy+perry/wide+awake_21005238.html ] 

I'm wide awake 

Not losing any sleep 

I picked up every piece 

And landed on my feet 

I'm wide awake 

Need nothing to complete myself - nooohooo 

I'm wide awake 

Yeah, I am born again 

Outta the lion's den 

I don't have to pretend 

And it's too late 

The story's over now, the end 

(Pre-Chorus) 

I wish I knew then 

What I know now 

Wouldn't dive in 

Wouldn't bow down 

Gravity hurts 

You made it so sweet 

Till I woke up on 

On the concrete 

(Chorus) 

Falling from cloud nine 

Crashing from the high 

I'm letting go tonight 

I'm Falling from cloud 9 

Thunder rumbling 

Castles crumbling 

I am trying to hold on 

God knows that I tried 

Seeing the bright side 

I'm not blind anymore 

(Chorus) 

Falling from cloud nine 

Crashing from the high 

(Ya' know) I'm letting go tonight 

I'm falling from cloud 9 

Is It Okay If I Call You Mine?

just for a time... (Paul McCrane)

Such a good song, meaningful lyrics,soothing melody and a soothing voice. A song filled with longing, wanting, needing, missing...

Well for some time, can't remember now when exactly...but yes, way back then, I thought it "connotes" a sad message, moment, experience... for it seemed like the love ended and one still holds on...that one has not moved on yet...or that it is a one-sided love...

That was then... When I was all naive and mmm say, fragile? (laughs)

But with the recent events...twists of fate...lovely twists of fate in fact... I have a whole new perspective...another story actually plays in mind whenever I hear this song...which was just few minutes ago...

What I see now...so vividly for that matter...is not of an "ending" but a "just parting for a moment but will be united someday soon"... simply put, a long distance relationship...

"I ca't wait to see you again..." This very line from the song proves me right after all but also proves how wrong I was before... *wink

Indeed, whatever mood you are in affects how you see things...how you would react to events...et cetera...of course!!!

I was blinded before that all I saw was the sad part...glad to be awake.

And now, I'm experiencing LSS (last song syndrome) as usual...well it's a good song so I don't mind singing/humming it all day..at all. I guess, well I'm quite sure that this is one of the anthems for those who are in LDR (long distance relationship)...Cheers!

BACK TO INNOCENCE

I sure do like the song by enigma. But I am not here to talk about the song.

I was watching CNN World Report when during a commercial break for prudential insurance; children were asked what their plans and dreams are. And one child caught my attention, and everyone’s for that matter because he was the last one to speak. I am not sure what was asked of him but I am quite sure it is related to money and so he said, “Save them and buy (lots) bubble gum…” and he chuckled.

“A child has no ego, no past or future. The child has no attachments, and because of this, he is able to express himself fully, without any prejudices or preconceived ideas.”

~ Amma ~

Well there are times I wish I am a child again. How I miss those times when I look forward to weekends and school breaks. How I miss running without worrying what people may think. How I miss playing in the mud without being judged. Oh, I miss a lot of things. It’s not that I cannot do those things right now, but as an adult…I, we are expected to be proper and conscious of our every actions.

But well, I am a stubborn lady so I say, “Who cares?” lol…

My Legacy

“Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched some way so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or that flower you planted, you're there. 

It doesn't matter what you do, he said, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that's like you after you take your hands away. The difference between the man who just cuts lawns and a real gardener is in the touching, he said. The lawn-cutter might just as well not have been there at all; the gardener will be there a lifetime.” ― Ray Bradbury


Ever since I started to know what is right from what is wrong... Ever since I started to slowly mature... Ever since I started learning... Ever since I learned that to be able to move on, one must dream... And so ever since I started dreaming bigger that I used to... I knew I won't be settling here... I knew and I felt that I was meant for an adventure of a lifetime...somewhere else. And I won't be able to do so...if I stay.

I did try once...and it was both fun and bumpy ride. Looking back on those days when I had a glimpse and taste of independence...I now realized why I had to come back home in the first place...I wasn't really ready and most especially, family comes first.

And now that I can somehow say that I am ready for that adventure...I must face this challenge... to put things in order and stabilized this "project" I started...hoping that it will be ...my legacy.

At least, I left something before I take in another challenge...before I pursue what my heart really desires.

BREAKING DAWN

Dawn is the time of the day when the light first appears in the sky. But breaking dawn may be the commencement of the day.

No. I am not here to talk about the actual moment of day which we so-called dawn, as we all used to say, “Dawn is breaking.” Nor I am talking about the last installment of the twilight saga which has girls of almost all ages got so hooked and going gaga over the superficial characters from which people who played the roles and most especially the capitalists have been taking leverage of.  But somehow it is of relevance to that time of day…the metaphoric way that is. It is because my versions of “breaking dawn” happened in the afternoon.

Dawn. As a noun, can be that time in the morning, the first appearance of daylight or simply the beginning or rise of anything. As a verb, to begin to grow light or to open or develop. Both connote the same thought, obviously. But my experience with the word was more of a verb that is…to begin to be perceived…

Literally and figuratively, my “breaking dawn” was indeed very late. I sure needed the time to think things over but when the idea, the answer, dawned on me… I was already late. It was already twilight.

I AM NOT A WRITER...

by profession that is...

Let's say...I am just very opinionated at times, a hopeless romantic in a way, very imaginative and a bit of a "rhetoric". I often don't say what I really feel that is why  writing is very helpful for me not to dwell on "past bad events and memories".

Besides, as how I am always reminded growing up, "If you have nothing good to say, you better not say a word at all." So true. Of course, I sometimes forget when I am almost to explode with anger. But, as being raised to be with finesse at all times, I must control. That is why I am here trying to write.

So what am I?

I can proudly say that I AM A WRITER. (did I also mention I am self-contradicting individual...laughs)

Anyway... I don't earn money out of it, BUT... at least, I have earned some respect from those I also respect. And that, I am contented.

So...until my next inspiring or challenging days.