YOU COMPLETE ME!

Sounds familiar?
I was watching Jerry Maguire just a while ago. Probably, that was my 10th time or more. I just don't know why I can't seem to get enough of that movie. Well, Tom Cruise as the lead actor has a lot to do with it. And it's a lie if I say that it's not because of him. I won't dare ignore him anyway [laughs]. But aside from him, the story just never ceases to move me. No matter how many times I've seen it. Especially the part when Jerry, my Jerry, said the legendary line. "YOU COMPLETE ME." Now, who wouldn't be moved by it? Definitely, no one in this world doesn't want someone tell him/her such a mind-blowing declaration of affection. I know. You just couldn't agree more. [Laughs]
I wish I had Renée Zellweger's role! [Laughs] Yeah. Not just in the movie but also in real life. I wish I have a Jerry of my own. [Laughs]
Isn't it obvious that I'm really into the movie?
I guess, if not all, some girls would agree with me if I want a Jerry. What's with him? In any case that you haven't seen the movie yet, aside from his very irresistible looks, tantalizing eyes, and breath-taking smile, he is a good person. Though he made mistakes which is, by the way, human's nature, he still tried to be a good person and actually changed to be a better one. But to top it all, he is a man who is, with all his heart, mind, body, and soul, brave enough to declare his love to the world. If he's able to tell someone that she completes him, that's someone worth dying for.
WOW. That's enough about the movie. And if you really haven't seen it, where were you? I'm just kidding. Seriously, do get a copy so you can relate to me. [Laughs]
I'm not saying that Jerry is the ideal man, of course, I'm well aware that a lot out there are better than him. But I wonder how many of them left now. No offense meant. I know that to love is to risk. And that you must prepare yourself for all the consequences. That you can't just love and worry no more. Love is really not enough. So let's face it, nowadays, loving is riskier since people tend to be very cautious or be very playful, sometimes both. For this reason, I can't help but wonder.
Wheew. Before I get more serious, I wanna bid farewell for now. Honestly, I'm running out of words. I'm just not good with matters of the heart. [Laughs] But seriously, if someone is out there better than my Jerry, you better complete me. [Laughs]
Je dois y aller maintenant. Adieu.

I GOT REASONS...

I can still remember the first day I saw him. He was too distant from everything and everyone that surrounds him. It’s as if he has his own world. And maybe that’s why I was drawn to him right there and then. I was so intrigued as to what is in his world. I was wondering of what’s really in that world of his, which made him able to, somehow, ignore THE WORLD around him. At first, I thought I was just being curious, but later on, to my surprise, I came to realize that aside from wanting to enter his world, I already wanted to be part of it. And that I don’t want to be another mere spectator anymore.
And by a strange quirk of fate, I was almost entering his world. I couldn’t believe at first, but he was there, smiling right in front of me. And I was kind of thrown to a situation where I could lose my sanity. At times, I had to slap myself just to know if I’m just dreaming. Well, that was an exaggeration though. But I did some ridiculous things just to continually remind myself of the possibility that it’s not really for real. That it’s actually a dream after all.
And it was.
They’re telling me that I should have been over it by now. They never ran out of words if they were to discourage me. They’ve already said almost all awful dreadful, terrible, appalling, unpleasant, horrible, shocking, mean, nasty, cruel words that I could think of. And that’s just to dissuade me.
Not that I don’t care of what they’ve been telling me, of course, I’m overwhelmed that they’re concerned and that some actually went out of their way to express how much they care for me, but my answer is simple, I got reasons. I can’t elaborate on those reasons though but rest assured that it has nothing to do with him anymore, definitely. Let’s say, it’s about me now.

THE BEST TIMES OF MY LIFE

I’ve been thinking lately. Now that’s something to be proud of. [Laughs] Seriously, after having thought over the things that happened to me these past few months, I came to the point of asking why I keep on tormenting myself with past events. In the first place, cliché may it seem, but past is really past. The damage has been done. And all I can do now is to be a better a person, a person who’s dreaming again and who’s not thinking of the worst times but of the best times instead. And speaking of the best times, I, definitely, got a lot to share.

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First in the list is, of course, the day I was born. That would certainly be the best of the best. Because, without me being born, I will never have the best times of my life. And thinking of it now, guess I have to “really” celebrate my birthday from now on. So folks, better ready those gifts. Remember, “It’s better to give than to receive”. [Laughs]

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Another best time is my chance to be educated. As always being said, intelligence is something that is yours, something that can’t be stolen. Besides, without intelligence, I won’t be able to know whether I’m having the best times of my life or not. [Laughs] Another thing is, my chance to be educated is also my chance to gain friends. So going to school is really having one of the best times because it’s where I found my friends. Also, it’s where I learned a lot. I gained knowledge, as expected. I learned to socialize and to present myself in a crowd. I learned how to improve my skills/talents. I learned what my rights are and learned to fight for it. And the learning keeps on. Though I was absent most of my school days [laughs], I can say that I still learned a lot. [Laughs]

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What else? How about love?

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Yeah. Being in love for several times is one of the best times. [Laughs] The feeling when you’re in love is really incomparable and so unexplainable. You know what I mean, right? Wheew. I can’t even get the right words to describe the feeling. It’s really a mix of all emotions. You’re excited and yet you’re nervous and anxious. You feel contentment yet you’re paranoid. You’re happy yet you’re scared. Name it. You’re really in an ocean of emotions when you’re in love, right? Maybe that’s why it’s really having the best time when you’re in love coz it’s like a roller coaster ride. [Laughs]

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Hmmm…

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Yeah. Being with friends is also having the best time. I can be foolish, be very foolish. I can be “emo” and yet laughing at the same time. [Laughs] Also, I can do a lot of things with them, as in A LOT. Gosh! I miss them all, especially my board mates. I miss our late night talks, our dress rehearsals, our videoke times, our “kanto” moments, everything. Actually, it’s with them that I can be whatever I want to be. Period. [Laughs]

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And the best time goes to…

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Of course, it will be the times when I’m with my family. It’s where all the best times started. The foundation of my being. What can I say? Without them, there’ll be no ME. I can and must say that I can lose everything but not my family!

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Duh… So serious!