Friday, December 7, 2012

A Mystery

A nd so the once cold heart melted like snow in spring
N ever expected the bloom it could bring
D ays passed, not a single one was ever missed
R olling in a field of never-ending bliss

E very once in a while, eyes would wander
W ith the hope that he may just appear anywhere, somewhere
J ust this thought already fills the mind and heart
O nly to be saddened of the fact that we’re apart

H owever, the sadness would immediately fade away
N ever has it been so easy, whenever I hear him say,
“M iles away, but I am here to stay…”
A nd so this now-fragile-heart is once again swept away.

S oon will come a time that such longing will be met
O n top of a hill, while watching the sun set
N ow, you may all still wonder…but you’ll know, sooner or later.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

It's STILL more fun in the PHILIPPINES!

Philippines. We have been through it all: wars, scandals, tragedies, financial crisis. Ant though we are still struggling to put an end to all those mentioned and more, one thing we never forget is to pray, help and SMILE! Yes we cry, we complain, we whine, we shout desperately...yet we still SMILE. It is no wonder that we have such a low suicidal rate.

And now that we are faced with another-same-old-new-problem - flood. I know, we will rise and at the end of the day, we will still be the "hopeful" nation. And we will soon, smile!

And...No matter how other great nations belittle us at times, no matter how the powerful nations bully us, no matter how harsh times could be…hey, I bet they can’t say “Coping/Surviving: It’s more fun in the Philippines”?


Wednesday, August 1, 2012

LSS again: One And Only...

You’ll never know
If you’ll never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine
I dare you to let me be
Your one and only
I promise I’m worth it
To hold in your arms
So, come on… maketh me a chance
To prove that I’m the one who can
Walk that mile…until the end starts

Until the end starts… this very line got me really hooked…aside from the “hope” it proposes…for me…it’s just so deep. Who could’ve thought that and end could start?

I mean…well, we all know that with every ending there’s a beginning of something. But for me, as how I see it, it’s an ultimate confession of unconditional and eternal love…because, again for me…one is willing to be there even if it’s the end…maybe end of the relationship, or ending of one’s existence, end of the world…et cetera… “Walk that mile…until the end starts…” To be there, to be that willing despite the unknown…brings a lot of hope. I can say so because we are used to hearing, "I will be with till the end"...see the difference? See the "hope" I'm talking about?

On a technical note...The song, in general, sounds generic…the melody, the lyrics…but, Adele (oh…hands down to her as always) is still commendable…again, as always…duh! (laughs)

With here power voice, nothing seems to go wrong. Not only that, she sings with her heart…but you can actually feel the pain...every emotion is felt when she sings.

And though, many say that this particular song, indeed, sound generic/common and that the lyrics is a bit shallow and oh, desperate…I must insist that Adele and her songs have obviously big difference from other songs nowadays…that is…they contain real feelings. Period.

Isn’t it obvious I love Adele. hehehe

Monday, July 30, 2012


This somehow is in relevance to what I posted about Paul McCrane's song...and I like this song...most of katy's songs that is...

I'm wide awake (x3) 
Yeah, I was in the dark 
I was falling hard 
With an open heart 
I'm wide awake 
How did I read the stars so wrong 
I'm wide awake 
And now it's clear to me 
That everything you see 
Ain't always what it seems 
I'm wide awake 
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long 
I wish I knew then 
What I know now 
Wouldn't dive in 
Wouldn't bow down 
Gravity hurts 
You made it so sweet 
Till I woke up on 
On the concrete 
Falling from cloud nine 
Crashing from the high 
I'm letting go tonight 
(Yeah I'm) Falling from cloud 9 
[ Lyrics from: ] 
I'm wide awake 
Not losing any sleep 
I picked up every piece 
And landed on my feet 
I'm wide awake 
Need nothing to complete myself - nooohooo 
I'm wide awake 
Yeah, I am born again 
Outta the lion's den 
I don't have to pretend 
And it's too late 
The story's over now, the end 
I wish I knew then 
What I know now 
Wouldn't dive in 
Wouldn't bow down 
Gravity hurts 
You made it so sweet 
Till I woke up on 
On the concrete 
Falling from cloud nine 
Crashing from the high 
I'm letting go tonight 
I'm Falling from cloud 9 
Thunder rumbling 
Castles crumbling 
I am trying to hold on 
God knows that I tried 
Seeing the bright side 
I'm not blind anymore 
Falling from cloud nine 
Crashing from the high 
(Ya' know) I'm letting go tonight 
I'm falling from cloud 9 

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Is It Okay If I Call You Mine?

just for a time... (Paul McCrane)

Such a good song, meaningful lyrics,soothing melody and a soothing voice. A song filled with longing, wanting, needing, missing...

Well for some time, can't remember now when exactly...but yes, way back then, I thought it "connotes" a sad message, moment, experience... for it seemed like the love ended and one still holds on...that one has not moved on yet...or that it is a one-sided love...

That was then... When I was all naive and mmm say, fragile? (laughs)

But with the recent events...twists of fate...lovely twists of fate in fact... I have a whole new perspective...another story actually plays in mind whenever I hear this song...which was just few minutes ago...

What I see vividly for that not of an "ending" but a "just parting for a moment but will be united someday soon"... simply put, a long distance relationship...

"I ca't wait to see you again..." This very line from the song proves me right after all but also proves how wrong I was before... *wink

Indeed, whatever mood you are in affects how you see you would react to cetera...of course!!!

I was blinded before that all I saw was the sad part...glad to be awake.

And now, I'm experiencing LSS (last song syndrome) as usual...well it's a good song so I don't mind singing/humming it all all. I guess, well I'm quite sure that this is one of the anthems for those who are in LDR (long distance relationship)...Cheers!

Wednesday, July 25, 2012


I sure do like the song by enigma. But I am not here to talk about the song.

I was watching CNN World Report when during a commercial break for prudential insurance; children were asked what their plans and dreams are. And one child caught my attention, and everyone’s for that matter because he was the last one to speak. I am not sure what was asked of him but I am quite sure it is related to money and so he said, “Save them and buy (lots) bubble gum…” and he chuckled.

“A child has no ego, no past or future. The child has no attachments, and because of this, he is able to express himself fully, without any prejudices or preconceived ideas.”
~ Amma ~

Well there are times I wish I am a child again. How I miss those times when I look forward to weekends and school breaks. How I miss running without worrying what people may think. How I miss playing in the mud without being judged. Oh, I miss a lot of things. It’s not that I cannot do those things right now, but as an adult…I, we are expected to be proper and conscious of our every actions.

But well, I am a stubborn lady so I say, “Who cares?” lol…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

My Legacy

“Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched some way so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or that flower you planted, you're there. 

It doesn't matter what you do, he said, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that's like you after you take your hands away. The difference between the man who just cuts lawns and a real gardener is in the touching, he said. The lawn-cutter might just as well not have been there at all; the gardener will be there a lifetime.” ― Ray Bradbury

Ever since I started to know what is right from what is wrong... Ever since I started to slowly mature... Ever since I started learning... Ever since I learned that to be able to move on, one must dream... And so ever since I started dreaming bigger that I used to... I knew I won't be settling here... I knew and I felt that I was meant for an adventure of a lifetime...somewhere else. And I won't be able to do so...if I stay.

I did try once...and it was both fun and bumpy ride. Looking back on those days when I had a glimpse and taste of independence...I now realized why I had to come back home in the first place...I wasn't really ready and most especially, family comes first.

And now that I can somehow say that I am ready for that adventure...I must face this challenge... to put things in order and stabilized this "project" I started...hoping that it will be legacy.

At least, I left something before I take in another challenge...before I pursue what my heart really desires.

Monday, July 16, 2012


Dawn is the time of the day when the light first appears in the sky. But breaking dawn may be the commencement of the day.

No. I am not here to talk about the actual moment of day which we so-called dawn, as we all used to say, “Dawn is breaking.” Nor I am talking about the last installment of the twilight saga which has girls of almost all ages got so hooked and going gaga over the superficial characters from which people who played the roles and most especially the capitalists have been taking leverage of.  But somehow it is of relevance to that time of day…the metaphoric way that is. It is because my versions of “breaking dawn” happened in the afternoon.

Dawn. As a noun, can be that time in the morning, the first appearance of daylight or simply the beginning or rise of anything. As a verb, to begin to grow light or to open or develop. Both connote the same thought, obviously. But my experience with the word was more of a verb that is…to begin to be perceived…

Literally and figuratively, my “breaking dawn” was indeed very late. I sure needed the time to think things over but when the idea, the answer, dawned on me… I was already late. It was already twilight.

Saturday, July 14, 2012


by profession that is...

Let's say...I am just very opinionated at times, a hopeless romantic in a way, very imaginative and a bit of a "rhetoric". I often don't say what I really feel that is why  writing is very helpful for me not to dwell on "past bad events and memories".

Besides, as how I am always reminded growing up, "If you have nothing good to say, you better not say a word at all." So true. Of course, I sometimes forget when I am almost to explode with anger. But, as being raised to be with finesse at all times, I must control. That is why I am here trying to write.

So what am I?

I can proudly say that I AM A WRITER. (did I also mention I am self-contradicting individual...laughs)

Anyway... I don't earn money out of it, BUT... at least, I have earned some respect from those I also respect. And that, I am contented.

So...until my next inspiring or challenging days.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

An UGLY personality, DESTROYS a pretty face.


I so happen to be lucky to have a righteous mother...who will constantly remind us to be good. And like she always say, "Good things come to Good people." and that, "A good heart shines through." With a mother like that, it's both pleasure and pressure...laughs.

My mother, like any normal person, is not perfect. But one thing for sure, she is kind. And that reflects on how she looks like. People are always at awe when they learn that she is in her 50s and that she had nine (9) children and two (2) grandchildren. People say that maybe because she smiles a lot. But it's not for us and for those who really know my mother and even my mother would say, that she is able to smile a lot despite all the stress, not because she can. "Anyone can smile," she will tell you that, "But its another story when you can really "genuinely" smile." And I am certain we all have seen fake smiles. A person who has good personality can really give, not just good smile, but light feeling. A smile that is contagious.

That is why, I really got disturbed when this girl, very pretty girl, came in the cafe...all smiles. Like you can almost see all her teeth. She was apologetic for she came very late. You might be wondering why I know this. NO. She isn't the company I was expecting. Just that, we are just one table apart. And oh my, she has loud presence.

Going back...

Yes, she was being sweet as she apologized. I have no idea how late she was since I just arrived five minutes earlier but her friends sure looked pissed. One was actually in a hurry that just a minute or two after she arrived, that friend left. And viola. She was like making faces as they watch their friend leave. And good thing,  my manners were in tact, coz I really felt like raising an eyebrow.

I didn't really listen after that coz I have more important things to do than dwell on how "good of a friend" that pretty-face girl is.

bottom-line...ladies and this matter how busy, fast-paced it has become...there are still eyes watching your every move, listening to each word, getting the vibe you are exuding, et cetera...yes, sadly, there are some who would really prefer pretty faces over good personality...but if you already have the pretty face, be as good as you can be...actually, all should.

I'm actually just going around imma stop and actually have to run sure you got the point...

Friday, June 15, 2012


i don't know if someone can relate to me...i guess most girls they say...we are fickle-minded individuals...but i really do hope that at least one can relate to me...

have you felt like you already made all necessary preparations to say that you are can be relocating, shifting to another college course, buying that clutch/bag/shoes/et cetera?

i'm sure you know what i mean...

i have this one not-so-crucial-but-still-important make-or-break moment...where i have to choose whether to hold on to the past, be happy with the present or take a chance on the future...(guess i should have this as the title...laughs).

it may sound simple....but choosing one or even the thought that i have to choose was and is really quite an ordeal...the fact that whatever i choose, many would really be affected...of course, there's always consequences to whatever you do...

yes...i was ready...was...when i only have the past and present to choose from...i was set to go to what i believed in was right...but like i have been told, not all that felt right is always right for oh, reality bites...then came a tempting chance in the future...

so just when i thought that i was ready set...i had to stop to think again...and thing to do (always) when making tough decisions....the only problem though is time...

but i took my time...i have rushed some decisions before and i paid a lofty price...

past...a huge influence of what i am now...
we have this old saying..."ang di marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan, ay di makakarating sa paroroonan" ...i don't know the english counterpart for this...but it's like what Confucius said, "Study the past, if you would divine the future..." yes, all learnings came from our past sometimes, sadly, we are judged by it...and yes, a part of that past is still pulling me back...and i certainly not going to be one of those who are still living in their past...

then the present...contentment...
but whenever i hear contentment, what always play in mind is one of my favorite author's line in of her novels... "Conventionality is the refuge of a stagnant mind" (Judith McNaught)...

and so came future...bright but risky and still vague... 
and though this "fear of the unknown" lurks in mind but gives me a certain kind of rush...still...i can't stop worrying...

so many what ifs...then i came across this... "The secret of the health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly." (Buddha)

i just hope i have made a good decision...(if not the right one at least be good)...and so i pray...

“Learn the past, watch the present, and create the future.”

Wednesday, June 6, 2012


Dear __________,

we have been playing this hide and seek quite so long
starting to feel the flame is not as strong
now, here i am, onto my next attempt to write a new song
with hopes that someday, beside me, you'd be singing along.

oh, indeed, it is hard to wait daylong
contemplating if still necessary for me to prolong
but as long as to someone else, i do not belong
i won't mind the longing
                ...the aching
                ...the waiting........because, to be with someone not you would be so so wrong.

Sunday, June 3, 2012


Dear __________,

Another day passed.
Now looking for a spell to cast
Because as I watch the rising of a new day
Reality bites...To find you goes a long way.

Thursday, March 1, 2012


Dear ____________,

I woke up so early this morning. But it was hard to wake up from a wonderful dream especially when everything felt so real. It was thaaat goood that, for the first time, I somehow regret waking up. But, of course, I had, have and need to. Call me silly but I felt that way. Well, I have moved on. Besides, I am and must be contented with the snapshots that somehow escaped to be suppressed into my unconsciousness (again) the other beautiful dreams I had.

You must be wondering as to what made it beautiful that I can’t seem to stop thinking about it.

I know I haven’t seen you. I don’t even know you at all…but I know and really felt that it was you. And even though I still didn’t get to see everything as clearly as I want to with all the windy, foggy surrounding…but I got to hold your hand…in fact, you were gripping my hand as if you want to crash it in a no pain kind of way.

They say dreams have meanings…well, I really do hope that this means you’re within my reach now. And if dreams do come true…may this one and the rest of the dreams related to it, do come true. And when that time comes, I won’t be letting go of that hand…ever.
Until my next dream…

One may call me weird for having these dreams. Well, these scenes are quite normal… what is not I guess is me being convinced that it is related to some sort of future reality… yes, in a very futuristic and hopeful perspective anyway… what can I do? I am a hopeless romantic… hehehe… well, no harms done…so let’s continue dreaming.